Not At Ease

If tomorrow was another day
then why am i left feeling so far
Behind in a place I don't understand
nor at at times wished to be a part of

A darkness haunts and doesn't let me forget
I'm a person just a human being
I didn't awake and choose me
It how it's come together

I hate it and it's not me
I can be so much more
That's what I aim for but I fail
The floor is closer than the sky

I put on a show
This is not colour but black and white
Just like me
You have me or you don't
Just 2 elements
2 people within fighting to make sense

An understanding
a place to remember
A time of uncertainty
That's not at ease