A decision

A decision I need to make,
Deciding which path is best to take,
Focusing on your best Ideals,
Focusing on my love for you for reals,

Can't understand what made my mind feel like this,
Could it be a silent conversation from you kiss,
A meeting to find out what i believe,
Don't want them to become pet peeves,

I want to experience a different church,
I also want to get you away from this hurt,
A missionary I may not become,
But I will still be better than some,

Think about you and a future,
A blown hole in my faith I could not suture,
I don't know what to think,
But now that i do the religion issue stinks,

I want to learn and I want to try,
I want to know what faith will lift me into the sky,
I want to know who is right or wrong,
I want to know where I belong,

Parents teach me an other,
I want to know the true religion of my father,
I want to know the truth,
I want some solid proof,