As I pick up that shiny razor blade
I can feel the bad memories start to fade
I'm slowly going to a better place
Where I don't have to try to keep a smile on my face
Across my arm the blade slowly slides
Letting out the feelings I try so hard to hide
Red blood slowly trickles down
as the look on my face turns to a frown
I hate it because I'm reminded of you
Every time I do what I know I shouldn't do
And all the ways that you hurt me
You thought you knew but you couldn't really see
The horrible things I was doing to me
You thought it was from a cat, but how stupid can you be?
So I put down that razor blade
But realize there are more memories that need to fade
So one more time I'll do it so I can feel free
And for once I can just be me
This time I love it because it feels right
I was sad but I feel so much better tonight
Watching the blood, it will slowly dry
Cutting myself gives me a wonderful high
The memories of you slowly start to fade
But still I pick up that razor blade
I have to do it one more time
Then I promise myself that I'll feel fine
As I make that cut across my skin
I ask myself can I ever win?
Will I ever be able to make someone see?
All the horrible things that I do to me?
Suddenly tears fill my blue eyes
Will someone finally hear my cries?
I need help I just want to feel alright
But it's not going to happen, no not tonight
So I pick up that razor blade
because like always, bad memories need to fade
