What we once had

I held you,
Never wanting to let go.
You'd tell me you loved me,
Just so I'd know.
You'd tell me if you lost me,
That you would die.
Of course you would,
and so would i.
But your gone now.
Does that mean your dead?
That f*c*ed up little thought occurred in my head.
Tears rolling down my cheek
I looked away,
not wanting to speak.
I gave you my purity,
and my strength.
You ripped it out of me,
with an unbearable yank.
Could you love me like i loved you?
I'll never know, and neither will you.
Because if i killed myself,
what would you do?