Faint

It's only been near a week
But it feels as if months have passed
My heart has stopped beating
But still the pain lasts

I talk as if my heart is broken
But it's not quite there yet
Phone calls, emails, and letters
None of them I seem to get

Everyday that passes
Is another day I don't hear from you
I wish there was a sign you care
But so far I must believe you do

When I think about what I want
Or what I need, it seems
You always come to my mind
With a long only experienced in dreams

I long to lay in your arms
To taste your sweet kiss
I long for the feeling of being loved
The things which are most precious

A lifetime of pure happiness
And it's all held in you
Treat me like an angel or b-tch
It doesn't matter what you do

Because you are my perfection
I won't accept that you hurt me
I can't tell you that you've done wrong
Because then we might no be

You'll talk about another girl
And I'll pretend not to care
I try so hard to make it work
Because I need you there

This is my only chance
Because no one wants a wh-re
So I give up all hope
If you don't care anymore

So I watch my reflection in the broken mirror
As my cold, glass heart breaks
I wish I the pain would numb already
So I might forget I was your one mistake

**You gave me promises and broke them. You gave me false hope. You told me you loved me, and screwed her. All I ever wanted was to be held. Just one show of affection. But I guess being what I am, you don't ever get that shit...So I cut for you. I starved for you. I degraded myself for you. And soon I will die for you too. And you're worth all of it. I'll always love you Jared...*