How Could You?

I sit in the darkness,
But write by candlelight.
Your picture sits in front of me,
And your voice is in my head.

It's telling me what to write,
Telling me how to feel.
It's saying that I should miss you,
And forgive and go back to you.

Your voice is overpowering my own thoughts.
I can't hear anything of my own.
My mind is swirling and spinning with thoughts not my own,
Say I love you, and I miss you?

Although I do miss you,
I would never go back to that pain.
I think more of myself and my feelings than you ever could.
I don't want to get crushed like that again.

You hurt so me bad.
Said you loved me and then took it back.
I don't know how you could do that.
I don't know why you would.

Your voice is telling me to forgive,
Forget what happened and love you again.
I know I can't though,
Because I hate you!