Jeff Like Usual *hurting myself*

The worlds the same
everyday
it will never change
in anyway
I find it hard
to face it
to go out there
and do my bit
to live my life
with a fake smile
that can only ever
last a while
to pretend to you
that I'm okay
cutting myself
when your away

jeff like usual
I'm in pain
was I ever happy?
I'm hurting myself again

go out there
for another day
will it get better?
I hope and pray
each night I sit
and wish on that star
hoping it will
get me far
wishing for you
to come back to me
wanted to be cared about
and be less free
I want you here
because I'm in pain
you speak and listen
with so much to gain

jeff like usual
I'm in pain
was I ever happy?
I'm hurting myself again

As I sit alone
I know I have a pointless life
well maybe one day
I can end it with my knife
pain reliever
to get away
becomes a habit
for everyday
If we pretend
we can get over it
you know you hate me
and don't care one bit
well when I'm dead
have your laughs or cries
I can finally be happy
there's no more tears in my eyes

jeff like usual
I'm in pain
I'll never be happy
I just keep hurting myself again...
...and again.

*thanks dudes because I ripped off your band name and put it in my poem - it makes it sound better*

~I'm too scared to fall asleep because all I dream about is losing you~