Sad Happiness

There isn`t much that makes me happy,
But I need to think of twenty things.
I need to find something,
To take my thoughts into happy springs.

One of the things that makes me happy,
Is the only guy I seem to see.
He listens to my secrets
Tells me of his love for me.

He makes me happy on my saddest days,
Like I am worth his while.
He takes away my sorrow,
He doesn`t let it pile.

Another thing I really love,
Is my kitty dear.
When I think no one else will listen,
He opens up his ears.

I have so many friends,
I guess it`s true.
Love is blind,
When you feel blue.

I love to express my feelings,
Through a simple poem.
I never have been liked for something that I think,
I guess I really showed them.

As odd as it may sound,
I love to do the dishes.
It`s the only time all day I can be in peace,
Thinking of my wishes.

When I am with my baby niece,
Her cheerfulness is just to much.
Even in my depressing hours,
I feel her gentle touch.

When I need to get my mind off things,
I go outside and dance.
Each and every raindrop,
Puts me in a trance.

Dancing in the rain,
Makes me feel so fresh.
I needn`t worry about catching cold,
It takes out all the stress.

When I am feeling really angered,
I go grab my skateboard.
I don`t care if I get scuffed or cut,
At least I know what the feeling`s for.

Now I am sitting in my bed at night,
Trying not to cry.
I am drawing everything,
Keeping my face dry.

I know it isn`t much,
And I don`t have any talent,
But a simple drawing,
Can bring me happiness, cant it?

One of my many wonders,
Is the way stars seem to sing.
They carry out their voices,
Passing through so many things.

I love the way,
They make my voice seem perfect.
I scream the words,
Still they seem to irk it.

Now this is really weird,
Sometimes my crying is a comfort.
It makes me sad inside of course,
Sometimes it`s nice to let the depression leak out.

Then I can finally get some sleep,
After all the depression.
My pillow seems to suck it up,
And I am worry free in some.

I love it in the car,
When we just drive for miles.
I love to stare into the sky,
Gazing at my reflective smile.

I can stare into the stars,
I manage a wish on each one.
For once in my life,
I feel like I have won.

I stare up at the moon,
Knowing they can`t see it too.
The time difference is just too much,
But they will see it soon.

I enjoy watching sad movies,
Exercise for keeping the tears inside.
I love to watch sad movies,
Like a window into their lives.

I feel the need to watch those things,
To know I?m not alone.
I need to feel the comfort,
I need to set the tone.

The thing that makes me really happy,
My world a truly better place,
Is the only country I`m happy in,
My United States.

Sure we are in Italy,
We moved here in March,
I hope to be moving back,
I need that thing everyone is speaking of, I really need that new start.

Megan 2004 ?

*This is the longest poem I have ever written, and by far the longest time it took me to write it. So I ask you one thing, please rate and/or comment on my work. It's so much harder for me to find my happiness, than to find my pain. Thank you everyone*