The Last Stage

I hate these feelings I have of alone,
But more than ever, I want to be on my own.
I’m so confused with my everyday past,
And wonder how long this feeling will last.

You’d think I’d want to be with my friends,
But now I want those times to end.
I try so hard not to bring them down,
But there’s just no other way when I’m around.

It’s almost as if I don’t care anymore,
And I’m tired of making excuses to live for.
I feel so empty, and lost in my heart,
I can’t even recall when all this did start.

I guess I’ve always felt this feeling of doubt,
But now it’s spreading, inside and out.
Somehow in this world, I don’t belong,
And it was a mistake to try to be strong.

I just want to end my life of gloom,
As I sit so alone, crying in my room.
It seems to no one my pain is aware,
And I feel, like me, they just don’t care.

-Megan Monique 2005

I've never felt so useless and alone.