First Time

I was a little scared
so nervous i was shaking
but we had decided
my innocence was yours for the taking

you began to gently push
and i would pull away
but there was no backing out
it was happening that day

still, i had doubts
i don't think i was ready
the pain started in surges
and then became steady

my face was distorted
as i winced in pain
but you were happy
so i tried to not complain

after you reached your climax
i was glad to have you stop
i was shocked i had let you do that
my self esteem began to drop

the experience was much different
from what i had expected
and i guess my need for comfort
had not been detected

"that was so much better than spooning"
was the only thing you said
and those seven awkward words
will burn forever in my head