Why aren't I happy now that you're gone?

I hated loving you,
yet why aren't I happy
now that you're gone?

You've made me realize
the passion I had inside me
yet I know it's so wrong.

Why do you say you love me
and yet whisper
the same words into her ear?

Then you kissed her softly
and leave me nothing
but a tear.

But still I strive for a glance
a special moment with you.

Until I break and shiver
and turn the slightest shade of blue.

As blood continues to drip
from my wrist
my insides slowly burn.

It's just another day in this world
just another lesson learned.

But still I must ask you this
one simple thing.

How can you kill me
yet be the wind beneath my wing?

I'll never understand why
you came in to my life,

but with one final kiss
blood drips on your shirt
and I slowly whisper Good-Bye.