All alone

I never thought I'd be an outcast,
keeping to myself,
But now I've become so much like that,
pulling away from everyone else.

I don't think about how I look like,
or the clothes I wear,
I don't even try to be "hot",
I just don't really care.

I don't wear Abercrombie,
and I don't have a cellphone,
I'm not a rocker or a rapper,
I'm just all alone.

I never thought I'd be like them,
(all those teens who frown),
I used to be so high and happy,
but everyday I drop more down.

No one knows me anymore,
they don't even check my mail,
everyday is just a test, and
I'm doomed to fail.

I'm going down the hill at 80,
and I'm pushing for more,
I found the key to my thoughts,
now I gotta find the door.

I go too deep (into my thoughts)
into all the things heard and seen,
I know for sure I'm crazy, but
I don't know what it means.

I never listen to anyone and
I lie about promises I don't keep,
I knew I had to fall somehow,
but no one ever said how deep.

I'm so far away now, my eyes are
gone and so is my stare,
People are asking if I need help,
but I know they don't really care.

Maybe someday I will come back,
but my sanity will not be here to stay,
because now I am too insane,
and I just can't get away.