The Saddened Soul

I cry myself to sleep,
the tears of my life stream down my cheeks.
My heart is filled with sand.
I have hurt others,
and now I bathe in my own pool of blood.
I feel as though I am not needed,
and sometimes not heard.
So I should disappear from this place,
and hurt no more.
I just want to lift myself away,
I don't want to feel......the pain
.......anymore.......
There's so much depression in this world,
and I just want to leave it all......
drift into the darkness that fills me,
I just want to get away.
I feel so helpless...lost....
I don't have a purpose.
Why do I feel this pain?
That's so deep.......deep inside......
It's always pushing, tearing me apart,
piece by piece.......destroying everything good that was me.
All these emotions, confusion, questioning....the unknown.....
is ripping everything I once was...
the forgotten things.
Everything that was keeping me alive inside.
I just want to bleed it out......
let it pour......
My crimson red sea of all my pain,
failures, insecurities, questioning,
my whole being...life its self,
lashing out......to haunt my mind.
I feel as though I'm suffering.......suffocating....
a brick on my chest....slowly dying
....forgetting.....letting go.......
darkness is coming.
I can feel it now......see it....taste it.
I'm slipping away,
Screams fill my ears as I see the black angel come for me.....
.....and then.....
silence fills the unknown nothingness.