Another Man

She has finally done it. She has finally found another man she would rather be with.
She left me to be with him, she forgot my plans to be with him, she is gone from me to be with him

She came over thinking of him, not me. She loved me with all of her heart but now.... he is there also.

She forgot about him...well at least for a little while. Now he has called and then she forgot about me.
She wanted him and didn't think of what I wanted. I can't tell her "No" or "Don't go" because I know
she will go no matter what I say or do. So I pretend I'm ok I hide what I really want to say, I dare not
reveal my true thoughts.

She thinks she sees through my mask and she tells me to be happy I tell her I am. For I really truly
am happy for her. I just wish it didn't feel like I am the only one to ever sacrifice anything for her. It doesn't
seem like she sacrifices her mind, her body, or her heart to make me happy.

I love this girl. She loves me....and another man. She knows I know about him. She knows I worry about him.
She knew what I had planned. She knew how much I wanted it. Now I don't care. I no longer have a reason for it,
she isn't here, she is with him. She left me to be with him, she forgot what I wanted, to be with him, she is now gone,
to be with him.

How can I compete? How am I supposed to beat him? Why did he have to get her?
Why didn't he wait till tomorrow, or the next day? Why am I doing this? She is happy whether it's because
of me or not, she is happy, and that's all that matters.

I'm happy for her. She doesn't know him. She knows me. He doesn't live close. I do. I am her boyfriend,her lover.
Him, he is her dad. I wish she was here. I'm glad she is with him. I wish she was with me.