Bound tight in this prison
Of self-made hate
No cheerful thoughts
I contemplate
So deeply locked in to my mind
Reality's glow left far behind
It's too dark here
I cannot see
Past rage and fear
Which swallow me
My time has come, Ive died again
And screaming hurt consumes my brain
No words here to
Describe this hell
Just the constant tolling
Of deaths low bell
As I count the minutes which fill my day
And watch the faces turn away
If I could die a million times
Id start at once
Leave myself far behind
And as I lay down
To sleep once more
I see a path - at the end, a door
All at once Ive left
This room
No cold hard floor
Takes me to my doom
Theres a shining light before my eyes
And a voice in my ear "big girls don't cry"
Thrashing and bleeding I wake
from my dream
My eyes are clouded
With life's dull gleam
I know at once why it's ended this way
God's sent me back to hell today.
