I'm afraid

My fears are all i know.
Night and day they endlessly haunt me.
I'm constantly wondering,
why do i live life this way?

I'm afraid to let go
and lose what's important to me
But I'm more afraid
to hold on and get hurt.

I'm afraid to love
because my heart might get use to it
which will make the end
more painful than i can handle

I'm afraid to be me
and not get accepted
even more afraid to be somebody else
and forget who i am.

I'm afraid to trust
because all i know is lies,
and the truth
maybe twice as bad.

I'm afraid to be happy
and have fun
because i don't know
how long it will last.

But mostly,
I'm afraid, I'll never stop feeling this way.