I'm Tired, But Remember...

You know I am tired of saying I'm sorry
I'm tired of always having to be in the wrong
I’m tired of fighting for what has been lost
For a friendship that was never even strong…
I’m tired of being the one who can’t sleep
The one who always has to care
I’m tired of having to beg for your forgiveness
Like I have got such a cross to bear …
I’m tired of writing all these poems
And never knowing what I should do
I’m tired of saving a thought for you each time
I doubt that you’re thinking of me too…
I’m tired of never knowing where I stand
Or what it is that I did to make you go
I’m tired of selflessly making these efforts
About a friendship you don’t even want to know…
So since I am so tired of you
And what this friendship has done to my life
I’m tired of feeling so depressed like this
Our friendship has brought me so much strife…

But I can’t help but remember the way
You and I used to be together
The plans we made the jokes we’d share
Like our friendship was bound to last forever…
And I remember how we used to enjoy
Every single chance we had, just you and I
There was no one and nothing that could come between us
Remember me catching the tears you’d cry…
Remember that night after Academy
You and I sitting messed up, talking sh!t in your car
That was the last time I ever felt really close to you
Remember you promised to never leave me far…
But I am also tired of remembering
Because those good memories sure can hurt
I want to hold on but can’t bear to live through again
My shattered heart being dragged through the dirt…
So I will push aside what I remember of us
Into the darkest corner of my lonely mind
And when you come back looking for your best friend
She was too tired is what you will find…