Crying for freedom of the mind

I feel lost and confused, with the two faces i own
One for at school, and one for at home
At school i smile and laugh - every-thing's ok
But then I'm at home i cry and i pray
i pray that one day i might find
The happy face, where people are kind

With this face, true friends i will have
And won't need to listen to those who think I'm mad
I'll have a boyfriend who will love and support me In everything i do
And his love for me, i know will be true

If only my friends knew the truth behind my smile
Maybe they would stop and listen for a while
But for now I'll just sit and listen to them complain
About how their 5th new boyfriend has done something wrong again

Thinking about my problems inside my head
Smiling, Smiling got to keep smiling
My insides twisting the wishes of being dead
Slowly everything gets more wrong and twisted
Confused the inside of me is mixed up, churning insisting
Around that i will soon scream
Cry, Break, Free, Let lose of this tree
Anger falling, crashing without a scream
Sound, inside of me let it out, got to let it out
Pain, Release, Blood, Free, Everyone watching it as i flee
Bleed, as they run away, No longer can i live this way.