What i'm going through

As i awake this morning
Thoughts about you flood my mind
I was tired
Breathless
I keep pushing you away
I guess it shows
I'm scared that you'll open up my healing wounds
Thus, i'm a little more careful
But don't you dare doubt my love for you
Thinking that i went all out to get you back
Just so that i could give you back all the pain you've brought to me
For my love for you is far too deep
I'm not playing you
That's true
There's something you should know
I'm telling you now
I've been having nightmares
And it's all about you
You leaving me once again
You think it's nothing
Think again
How can i not be afraid
That my god damn it dream might turn into another painful reality
I'm so tired of thinking
Till i'm breaking
Taking a time off
Hope it'll be helping
If it doesn't, we'll both quit
And we've concluded that,
This, will be our ending