Peacefull Sleep

Every night before i got to bed.
I have a routine......
its not the best....but
its helps me sleep peacefully.

I cut so deep...watching the blood seep,
Seeping threw my skin...its look so great.

Its the only way i can sleep now.
My boyfriend threatens to brake up with me.
But i cant stop,its an addiction.
That may never go away.

While i cut i think of my family how they hate me.
How i want to be dead sometimes.
but i dont have the guts to pull that trigger.

So for now...i am just going to cut everynight,
before i close my eyes to sleep peacefully threw the night.

^this is something that just came to mind,so i thought i would submit it,not really a poem buts its something.^
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