Can I Survive?

All the pressures of life are tough,
and making it through can be rough,
I'm not sure if I can hold on,
one day soon I might be gone,
it's just so hard to make it,
it's too hard for me to take it,
life seems to be destroying me,
and everyone else seems to be happy,

Can I survive,
do I have the drive,
I need more motivation or I don't think I'll live,
every day I come this much closer to saying I give,
demons cloud my head,
I hate everything that I have said,
I don't think I can keep going,
it is my pain I try to keep from showing,

I don't think I can survive,
I don't even know if I'm alive,
death seems to be my only way out,
so I will stand up and shout,
GOODBYE,
I'm finally going to try,
but it's so hard to pull this trigger,
it's finally time to call the grave digger...