You dont know me

You don’t know me
So stop acting like you do,

You don’t own me
So stop pretending to.

I am not a doll,
Every time you play with me I start to fall.

I fall deeper into silence,
Just waiting for the violence,

I can only take so much,
STOP don’t touch.

Cant you read,
Or do you always have to lead?

You always have to be right,
But I wont give in without a fight.

Do you know who I am?
Sometimes it seems like you don’t give a damn.

You will never see,
The hurt you give to me.

I mask it with lies,
And fake joy in my eyes.

Smiles on my face,
For the hurt they replace.

I wonder when you will really see,
Who I am, me.

I realize this can never be,
For all this time you have never seen.

All you know are my fake smiles and laughs,
Not to mention the joy that masks.

No matter how hard I try,
It wont stop the tears that I cry.

Just go,
I don’t want you to know

This hurt that you give to me,
For when you finally see,
It will tear you apart piece by piece.

Please try to understand,
This is the best plan.

Save yourself and let me be freed.
Don’t make me plea.

I will love you forever,,
We just aren’t meant to be.

All this time you have never known me,
You walk away with defeat.

You have never owned me,
That’s just what you’d seen.

© K. Bolach