I've never felt so lost
In my whole life
And I've never wanted so badly
To pick up the knife
I'm fighting with my best friend
And its so confusing
I know that she cares
But I still feel like I'm losing
Every thing's falling apart
Right in front of me
I don't understand it
WHY ME???
Why has everything gone to hell
Is this God's revenge on me
For the cutting and sinning
And the way I've treated everybody
I want so badly just to disappear
I can't take the fighting
Not with her
The one who brought me from hiding
I don't deserve her
But shes still fighting for me
She says she cares
Even though thats not how it should be
I wish I could be half the person
That she is
But just like in school
I'd get an F on this quiz
I wish she believed me
When i say that i care
And i really am sorry
And how much I'd like to be there
I want to be there for her
Just like she always has been for me
But everything is falling apart so fast
Its happening right in front of me
I don't know whats wrong
I don't know whats right
I just wish so badly
That we didn't have to fight
I wish she knew i loved her
With all my heart
And i wish she knew
Its been that way from the start
If i could tell her today
The way I feel
I would tell her that shes my best friend
And i wish I could heal
Heal all the wounds that i have made
From being so selfish and lame
I would tell her that i cared
And i know this isn't a game
I wish she knew all of this
And i wish i could tell her
But instead I tell of you
While I'm rotting to the core
***Jennifer....I really do care about you and I'm so truly sorry i wish you knew and believed me... I know this doesn't make much sense but nothing does right now.... I'm sorry***
