Last Breath

I don't know what is wrong
I just seem to cry and cry
I always feel so alone
I can't take it much longer
You know I want to go
I've told you many times
Never thought I'd try until today
I used to think about it
Suicide, sweet and true
But then I thought of you
It would usually pull me through
But not today
I don't know why
I start to hack away at my wrists
A sweet sort of relief
The kind I felt when you kissed my lips
Blood stained my carpet and my clothes
The pain I feel inside, no-one knows
They won't understand why I am dead
I always seemed so happy and free
But so you all know that wasnt the real me
The blade in my hand
My body crying for more
I cut deeper
You watch me as I fall
I hear a car
The doors slam
Someone is coming
It's you, I see your face one last time
I see the tears you can't hold back
You cry
You were always there but this time it's too late
The blood so warm running down my hand that you hold onto so tight
You whisper in my ear
Something that sounds like "I love You"
I try to tell you I love you too
But my breath is becoming shorter
Tears swell up in my eyes
I start to regret
Ever starting this
But now that it's started it must be finished
I must follow it through
I don't want to end up in a hospital
Forever hurting you
It's easier this way
Believe me
There's no need to hate yourself
I know you do
You think you let me down
But you were the one that pulled me through
This far, If it wasn't for you I would have gone long ago
Now they're all here
They're all crying with you
You pull me into your arms
I feel your touch one last time
I hear the sirrens as I slowly drift away to a paradise unlike any other
I whisper with my last breath
"I'm so very sorry, I love you all so much"
I will forever watch over you
Guiding you through
I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused
But your better off without me