Little Girl

Sitting and crying with no reason why,
I look through the tears, up into the sky,
The air is grey all around me,
And haunting clouds are all that i see,
I pull the hood up over my head,
But now all i see is black instead,
I close my eyes and now i can't see,
I just sit here and wonder why no one wants me,
Everyone just moves further away,
I have nothing to feel and nothing to say,
Except that when i say I'm not down,
Please leave me alone, ignore that frown,
Ignore the little girl all dressed up,
In big girl's clothes, she's run out of luck,
She won't feel the arm around her shoulders,
When you offer her your help and your comfort,
All she will feel is the hate and regret,
Of all the things she just cannot forget,
She cannot move past those horrible years,
She still has the memories of the pain and the fears,
As you all sit by and watch her there,
You don't understand that she really does care,
The problem is that she cannot move on,
And everything she does always comes out wrong,
All the words she's said and the things she's done,
They all stay with her, she cant forget for long,
And all she wishes is that she could forget,
The years of the pain, and those of regret,
The ones that she turns into the cuts,
And funny thing is, they don't hurt her much,
She wants your help; she wants to grow up,
She just finds it hard, to accept that love,
She doesn't understand just how it feels,
When you're turned away after trying to heal,
Her bruised soul and her broken heart,
Her each and every dying part,
She asks you now to try to understand,
Why she finds it so hard but wants it so bad,
And do you know, that little girl,
Is really thirteen, not small at all.
But inside she's three and then she's ten,
As she goes through all the hurt again,
That little girl who does not want to see,
That little girl is really, just me.

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