Forever

Alone i sit... alone i am... i hurt you... i hurt everyone.. everything i tuch dies... lost... searching for something to make this rite.... looking in all the wrong places, i mess it up even more... i lost you... you were the best thing i could have ever came upon... and i lost it... i can never forget laying with you... head on your chest... the thud of your heart against my body.. you were so beautiful... laying there... perfect.... you look at me.... but i can not meet your gaze... i look away... tears fill my eyes... you ask me why I'm crying.. but i can not answer you.. i don't want to me alone, but i know you can not help me. i wish you could help me.... you say you want to save me..... be a good friend... but not an hour be for you wanted to love me forever... i don't care what you say you can never love me the same... i want so much to reach out and hold you.... but every time i try... my body want let me move.... you grab my leg... i know it mite be the last time you ever touch me... we fall asleep together.... yet so far apart.... holding you... nothings changed... but holding me.... i can feel you letting me go. i wish that night would have gone on forever... your eyes were forgiving... i know you still want me... but there pulling you away.. changing your mind... i want to scream out.. beg for your forgiveness and ask you not to listen to them... don't leave me here.... i have no one... i love you... I'm sorry that i hurt you... i put it all in the past... i wish i would've never done this... i just wanted to get over you.. i guess it wasn't meant to be... but i will never forget you..