Wanting to

Wanting to get better is one thing
But trying to get better is another

Wanting to be happy is just to damn hard

Pretending to be happy is so damn easy

Crying is a routine for me now

My day might of went really good

But when I'm all alone in my room
I don't have anyone to turn to
and so i just cry

I have Lost so much and i have gained nothing

I have cried a million tears but i know that crying wont bring him back

Being with someone else is not going to work

Nobody is just like him in anyway

He once said Nobody will try to make you as happy as i do

And he was right

I don't have the will to make things right to change for the better

So I'm going to suffer in my own little world

Because they don't understand my pain

Or how i still wish i would just die

So as everyday gos by I will (Pretend) to be happy
and put a smile on my face

Because wanting to be happy is just to damn hard