Sick of it

I’m sick of all these actions
And I’m sick of all these lies
Sick of girls hanging with just girls
And guys just with the guys
I’m sick of all these rumors
Spreading through our school
I’m sick of only doing things
Because it’s thought of as “cool”
I’m sick of all you phonies
Telling us we are wrong
I’m sick of all this crap
That we don’t belong
I’m sick of everything
I’m sick of you
I’m sick of me
I’m sick of hiding away
Drifting away
Making sure you can’t see
Who I am
What I want
Never being me
I’m sick of lying to you
Telling you that I’m
Alright
I’m not just going to lie here
And give up to you
Without putting up a
Fight
I’m sick of your fake laughter
Stop smiling that fake smile
Try maybe for a day
To be yourself for a while
I’m sick of all the stress
Of trying to “fit in”
I’m sick of this
I’m sick of it
So here’s where it begins
Here’s me
Ya, me
The one crying by herself
Here’s him
Yes him
Not the fake mask sitting on the shelf
You patronize me?
While your busy
Accessorizing?
You mock me because I’m different
BAccessoriesl the same
I thought we were “individuals”
But this is just a game
Isn’t it?
You with your matching backpacks
Your scrunches and hair ties
So you’re all in on this?
What a bunch of lies
STOP LIEING TO ME!
Stop telling me I’m fine
Stop telling me to hold on
To something not even you can define
You can’t feel what I feel
Secluded and alone
I bet you don’t sit there
Crying by the phone
Suicide biocide
Does that ever
Cross your mind?
What about that rip of heart
Everything just falls apart
Can you see me falling?
Disappearing from your sight
O no, don’t worry about me
I will be all right
Just stop.
But look it I’m still here
O I am just fine
Cuz I am holding on
To something you can’t define
But I call it fake
Smiles and laughter
I don’t care what
Follows after
I’m still here
Against my will maybe
But I’m here
Don’t you dare call me crazy
I’m still here
This is me
This is who I am
I’m sick of hiding
Sick of crying
Sick of me but
Can’t you see?
I’m still me.
Not that mask you wear
Not that you care
But hey
This is me.

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