I hate how I feel so alone
like I'm the only one here
no one sees through my lies
they can't see all my fear
I hate feeling this guilt
regret, confusion, and pain
I've been hiding these things so long
pretty soon I'll go insane
I hate pretending to be happy
when there's so much I can't show
I hide behind my fake smile
hoping no one will ever know
I hate thinking of losing him
and how my world would end
I don't know what I'd do
If he was no more than a friend
I hate when people are pressuring me
it's like they want me to undo things that are done
I feel obligated to do my best
and I just want to turn and run
I hate wondering all the "what if's"
What if I die today
what if loved ones never knew
because I didn't have time to say
I hate being so scared
Crying myself to sleep
wanting to express myself
yet, hiding things so deep
I hate wearing these masks
to cover up the real me
I know that if I opened up
People would see differently
I hate waiting for something to happen
and somehow it never does
I get my hopes up high- but then they're ruined
and I'm back to where I was
I hate loving someone so much
and having them care less about you
they play around like it's a game
they pretend they don't even have a clue
I hate waking up in the morning
when the hurting is so great
I don't want to get out of bed
because there are too many things I hate.
