Even though i promised

Even though i promised,
I'm sorry to say i did it again.
I know its hurting you too
But at least this time it was thin.

Even though i promised
That a blade wouldn't touch my wrist
When the pain and stress is far too heavy,
I must cut and squeeze my fist.

Even though i promised,
that getting help would solve this,
But no matter how hard i f*king try,
I'll never experience bliss.

Even though i promised,
Something has gone terribly wrong,
No matter how hard i try,
I can only be this darkened song.

Pain is my middle name,
even though i try to hide it.
I bet You'd never know that at night,
I throw a fit.

Just please, don't look at my wrist
for it will remind me
that i broke a promise to you
Just u gotta make a promise to me, that u wont leave.

And please don't break it.