So much has happened in the last few months....i found out the first love of my life who i still had so many feelings for...was already over me....it hurt so bad...i cried all night....
then finding out i wasn't pregnant...and now losing the guy i really like just because i met some guy over the internet and i broke up with him for the other guy....
now i haven't heard from him in like 2 days....and i am hoping all the stuff he said was true...maybe he will call soon...
so now i just lie awake waiting for a call from him....because every time that phone rings i think its him and my heart pounds hard but then as i pick up the phone and its not him...my heart just sinks....
all i wanted was to find someone to love me for me...so as i lay awake at night praying its all going to be ok....i am hoping i get a sign or something that its all going to work out....
because in the last few months...so much has happened...
