Behaving

I'm sorry for always getting in the way,
somehow i think earth would be better if i was lost.
i knew somehow i would pay,
i have no idea why i try.
I'm so trapped inside,
i cant help my life and why i cry.
i don't understand why I'm doing this,
but something in my life is missed.
i feel guilty for what has happened,
and i just sit and pretended i didn't care,
but i did and my anger feels like a lit up flare.
I'm empty inside my body Cause of u,
my life feels so old and moldy.
I'm stuck alone,
i used to be scared of being alone,
but I'm learning to like myself now.
i have to laugh at myself,
cause no-one will.
i should just wait,
wait till my life starts behaving.