Revenge Is Mine :)

You're always there for me
Don't know how I'd live without you
You try and figure out what\'s in my head
Good luck with that cause I don't even understand
My life's a mess
Look at what I've done to myself
Maybe it's truly my fault
I'm a cutter
I'm a s**t
How many names must you call me
It's your fault I'm so paranoid
I have given up on trying to please you all
I just don't care
Do you get your pleasure from watching me fall
Where are you
I need you here
I will shed blood
I want to cut again
Where are you my tourniquet
I know you didn't mean to
This is not your fault
I keep on stuffing up
If it wasn't for you I'd be dead
Still you people don't understand
My life is hanging by a thread
I'm scared of so many things
I never want to leave the safety of my room again
I want to lock myself away from the torment of the world
Everyday I live is another day of torture
I'm dying slowly
Trying not to give up
and if all else fail I'll add another cut
It's OK
I'll be fine
Hand me the knife
Revenge is mine

**I'm sorry, this poem is a bit confusing...I'm talking about my boyfriend in parts and other people in the other parts. I personally think it's a bad poem but please comment and vote!!**