I hate it all

I hate all the lies…
I hate these tears in my eyes…
I hate all the pain I feel…
I hate how it feels so real…
I hate all the fights…
I hate all the sleepless nights…
I hate being so confused…
I hate feeling so used…
I hate not knowing who I am…
I hate feeling like such a sham…
I hate all the sorrow…
I hate dreading tomorrow…
I hate wishing I were dead…
I hate all the tears I have shed…
I hate my life...
I hate craving the knife...
I hate being here…
I hate my fear…
I hate feeling expendable…
I hate being so usable…
I hate pretending I’m not me…
I hate all the hurt you don’t see…