This Great Unholy Land

I want to tear it open,
I want to see my blood once more,
I know last night scared me,
But it also opened doors,

My mates i am not loosing,
They hardly seemed to care,
I know they do but you see,
They seem so numb, so not there,

Tom he didn't see yet,
God knows when he will,
What will happen when he spots it?
A plan to dump me will he fulfill?

Most likely he'll think it's his fault,
And wonder what he did wrong,
Will we still hold hands together?
Will he still touch me all lesson long?

I'd miss him if he left me,
My bright and shining star,
If he got up and left me,
Would we be forever apart?

This is a poem of mystery,
It has no certain end,
I want to know the answers,
But i cannot comprehend,

I have no clear solution,
No final answer book,
I'll have to write it myself,
I wish i had one that at it i could look,

This suspense is killing me,
No actually it's not,
I just pray that we all stay together,
With mine and his baby in it's cot,

I want to be with him forever,
I hope he doesn't leave me now,
Because without my shining star in the sky,
To dark night I'd be forever bound,

with my shining star still holding,
Tightly to my hand,
I can still see the deadly attraction,
To this great, unholy land.

*All votes and comments greatly appreciated as always.*