When I was little I didn’t know about the knife
When I was little I didn’t know you could end your own life
I used to wish and pray
All that all my pain would go away
My brother lied and said he had the cure
That whole time in my life basically a blur
I wanted to fit in
So all I did was sin
I’m growing now and I have learned
I’m growing now and it’s a horrible life I have earned
They say I didn’t dissever it
But I know I did with every hit
My mom was crazy and scared me a lot
She threw my toys they hit a week spot
I was bleeding hard , blood mixed with tears
Nothing could take away all of my fears
I’m older now and in the same place
I’m older now to look in the mirror at the same face
I wake up every morning and walk through the day
I go to bed at night no longer do I pray
Myself abused me and ruined everything I had
My whole life is now totally sad
I want to kill her while she sleeps
And watch the people as no one weeps
