How I Feel...

How I feel….
Am I going to heal…?
I don’t know how I feel,
I can’t describe it, I like to conceal…!

I’m a dark girl,
I help others so I don’t have to face the world…
My own troubles…
My own life…
The strife,
Of it all,
I just carry on to… fall and fall,
Until I get to the lowest,
And I’m really down and depressed…
People recognize…
The way I hide…
I don’t sort my own problems out,
I let them leave me, but I doubt…
Well I know…
They never go…

Can you see by these colors…?
That I’m a bit under the weather?
It’s nearly crimbo,
I need to get into the flow,
Of things around me,
But the Christmas tree…
Doesn’t bring any Xmas feeling,
I’m starting to be concealing…
Yet again…
I do it now and then…

I haven’t really explained how I feel…
I keep trying to conceal…
I can’t help it…
That’s me get used to it…
I’m not bad,
Just not glad…
That’s how I feel…
I dunno…

*i just dont know how i feel anymore...* *votes/comments would be appreciated*

*Depression*Is*An*Illness* ©