The Party That Changed My Life

I sit here all alone
Always thinking of that night
The one that led to this me
I was only young (barely 15)
I knew no better
You said ‘it’d be aright’
Said ‘I could trust you’

We went to that party
I met that boy
Told him I wasn’t sure
But he promised I’d be just fine

I didn’t mean for it to go that far
Begging for you to stop
Crying out it pain!
You finished with me
Only to pass me to him
And then the next
Not letting me rest
For even one minute

Two months on I found out
It was growing in my womb
But to tell you would mean death
This baby did nothing wrong
It was I who went
Where I should not, should I?

Three months on I know I must tell
As I cannot blame it on eating more
When I’ve never ate before
But my baby; he will not take
I refuse to lose my baby
The only innocent thing left!

Four months past,
But the pain
It’s yet to go
The torture continues
I fear always
For my baby’s growth!

One night to go
But the pain never stops
To the hospital I go
But the baby
He’s born not

To a better place
He’s gone
Like an angel he looked
Away from you
He had to go only he didn’t
In the way I hoped nor prayed
You take away everything:-
My son, my heart
So why not my soul?

Why can my blood flow not?
Like a river out of my body
That you and they took

I wish to that party
I hadn’t gone
I wish that drink
I never took
I only wish not
That I hadn’t made
My baby boy
I only wish
My son he lived
Without you as a father

So my life I take
In return my son
Him I meet
For once I thank you
You gave me the strength
To get away from you

Any power you once had
I take away from you
And you’ll have no more!