Maybe Tomorrow

How often I keep looking
For words I just can’t seem to find
Trying to understand this life of mine
It keeps going trough my mind

But who am I kidding here
Life seems to just pass me by
Sitting here alone in my room again
Time after time just wondering why

I put the point of the arrow
Right here, at the side of my head
Hoping I can pull the trigger this time
Resulting, hopefully in my death

My mind says “Do it, just pull”
But my body won’t move at all
I keep repeating it in my head
“Do it now” just pull, so I will fall

All I want in this sad life of mine
Is to end it once and for all, to die
But I can’t even take my own life
So I here I am, living a lie

I have no fear for death,
Not even a little bit, not at all
Only for this life I live
I keep staring blankly at my wall

Maybe tomorrow I can do it
Then this feeling might go away
And with a last sigh I fall to sleep
Dreaming of tomorrow, another day…