Remind Me How It Feels To Be Loved

Something has broken in my soul
I find a reason to cry over everything
I want someone to love me and hold me
I want something to keep me here and keep me sane
I do not care anymore who I fall in love with
I just want to feel whole for a change
I’m tired of feeling so broken
If I fall in love with a man
I want him to hold me
I want him to ease my pain away
I want my heart to stop crying out in pain
I do not want to hold him
I have held so many in my arms
That I have absorbed their pain
Just like I wanted to do
I wanted to be everyone’s sacrifices
But I wanted their pain to be gone when I took their sorrow
Instead their pain became mine
And they still lived in their torment
Now I live in the pain of the world and my own
And the days I live are becoming harder to bare
The people I can not help are in pain
I and just absorb everything they fear
I understand them more than I understand myself
I always wanted to hold them in my arms
And take their pain away and live in pain for them
But why do I suffer now when they are all still in pain?

I have fallen in love with the ones I wish I could help
Their pain brings me closer to them; man or woman
I still love them all like I was their lover
Their pain they show so clearly reminds me of myself
They bring me, me back to life
The me that I lost long ago
I just want to let them live
I will cry every night for you
I love you all so much
That this pain you give me I love and hate
You remind me what it feels like to be loved
And you torture me with the sight of myself when I see you in pain
If I fall in love with a woman
I want her to love me for me
I want her to hold me tight in her arms
And remind me how it is to feel free
To feel care free and not be afraid anymore
I want her to take me from my corner of tears
And hold me tight and kiss my tears away

I want to be held
I want to be loved
But I want to take everyone’s pain
I want to take yours Sarah
I want to take yours Courtney
I want to take yours Jenny
David, Ben, Jessie, Matt, and Peter.
I want to let you live
But I don’t want to cry anymore
I’m so confused I just need to be held once
And be reminded how it feels to be loved
Just one last time.

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This was really hard to write.. Not that i did not know what to write... I knew what i wanted to say... It was just really emotional... I cried when i wrote it.. Still am... :.(