Behind~The~Curtains

Where have I come to?
What is this dark place?
Why am I so cold
In this tormenting, empty space?

Why have I built a world
Behind the curtains of my mind?
Why don't I free my locked up emotions
And stop myself from crawling up inside?

Life's train has passed me
As I remain here and weep
I watched sorrow with grief
As it stole away comfort and sleep

I live in my illusions and lies
Pretending there is no traces of pain
But this darkness is creeping in on me
Obsecuring the ideas in my brain

I cannot heal what I've experienced
I pay thousands of tears for a smile
Time will never cure my wounds
My life is plain and not worthwile

I hide behind my fakest smile
Because people will never understand
My anguish is beyond their tiny minds
They will never offer a hand

There is no need to fill in the blanks
My pain is crystal clear
I cannot connect the dots of my life
While I'm frozen, remaining here

I don't want to wake up from my illusions
I want to ignore the truth, just be blind
Because my world is very peaceful
Right here, behind the curtains of my mind