Love you still?

I hate it
That i love you still
I hate it more
That i always will

Didn't know you
For very long
But my love for you
Was just so strong

Love or lust
I did not know
I only knew
You had to go

You chose her
Over me
Hurt so bad
Yet you didn't see

One day you came
Back to school
Ignored you
Followed my new years rule

You looked at me
You didn't understand
Why i wasn't competing
To hold your hand

Met your gaze
Had nothing to say
Smiled at you
Then looked away

Last day in country
Yet i ignored you still
Hurting cause i loved you
And thought i always will

*J*