Blood & Tears

I can't find the one thing
That I really need
I can't get the tears to cry
Can't get the blood to bleed

I'm searching for one person to trust
I'm searching for something that doesn't exist
I'm searching for the one thing
I will always have to miss.

Everything crashed down that day
I lost what I valued most
So I threw away everything that mattered
Including the memories I held close.

No one else knew or understood
The pain that I had to face
Because everything I've lost
No one can ever replace

I feel so empty without you
And every night I say a prayer
That one day I would wake up
And you would still be there.

Fate ruined my whole life
I try my best to pretend I'm strong
But its so much harder when
My own end is what I've wanted all along

To live a long life
Would be my biggest fear
Because the longer I live
The longer I drown in my own tears.

The load that I've been given
Is more than I can hold.
As my heart broken summer
Turns to a winter's bitter cold.

If what they're saying is true
And you're going where you're meant to be
Then surely in the end
You'll be directed straight back to me...