Now Everyone Knows

This is probably one of my worst poems, but I wrote it earlier this year when things were really bad, and I couldn't think straight, but it is straight from the heart, and I realise now how ill i really was.

Now Everyone Knows

Now everyone knows
How ill I really am
They try to comfort me
But nobody can

Now everyone knows
How ill my mind has become
And how all of my efforts
They've all come undone

Cos’ I just sit here alone
Five days it’s been I think
Everything is moving so fast
Days pass with each blink

They look at me strange now
They know I won’t eat
I’m not going to let this thing live
I wont let my heart beat

Now everyone knows
How weak my body has become
This time I haven’t the strength to care
I only feel numb

Don’t sleep, don’t eat,
They say I look so pale
I’m so tired it’s hard to move
They say I’m really frail

I see my skin, raw, bleeding
But I just watch the blood flow
I’m not able to pick myself up
Only able to let go

Haven’t changed my clothes
It’s been seven days now
I wonder how long this will take
Or will I survive somehow

I wonder how long it is
Until I finally die
I wonder how long it is
Until I break down and cry

Now everyone knows
How I've finally broken
Shattered into a bloody mess
Too much pain has spoken

I wonder how long it is
Until I’m finally gone
I wonder how long it is
Until I bid this life so long

Yesterday I heard them
They’re taking me away
I think I’m being sectioned
In a hospital I will stay

These pills are making my room
Such a suffocating mess
They’re scattered everywhere
And I couldn’t care less

Now everyone knows
How ill I really am
They try to comfort me
But nobody can

Maybe tonight when I sleep
I will sleep forever
And then maybe I can see your face
And maybe we’ll be together

Any comments would mean a lot x