I will and always do

Seeing your face today,
I almost wanted to cry,
I’d never seen you look so hurt,
I sat there and wondered why,

You told me why now,
But the thought still stays,
I can see your broken face,
The vision just replays,

God why did I just try?
To forget and ignore,
Why did I put on my mask?
When I could see you felt so sore,

Why did I go back?
To making myself smile,
To putting on my face,
Trying to look worthwhile,

Right now my heart is aching,
Cause I don’t know how you are,
I don’t know if you sit and cry,
Or you bury your thoughts afar,

What if you just cant?
Do you turn to a blade?
Do you end up cutting?
Like so many people our age?

Not just like so many people,
But like me, like myself!
I don’t want you to feel that way,
I’m trying to keep my knife on the shelf,

You don’t know how it hurts me,
To sit and keep picturing you cry,
Tears come forward and brim,
At the edge of my eye,

That day a couple of years ago,
I sat and saw your tears,
I could do nothing about it,
I wasn't close, i feared,

I feared people mocking me,
For trying to talk to you,
For trying to show you I cared,
And that I loved, so dearly, you,

Later that day,
When you were in a different class,
I sat and I cried,
I felt the aftermath,

I know it sounds silly,
But I cared about you,
Even if you didn't feel the same,
I couldn't help my feeling blue,

Forget about my tears,
And my worries about you,
Just know that I care,
I will and always do.

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