I'm so sorry

As I sit here writing
I now know what you mean
I have to forget what we both had
And what we could have been
I have to stop my crying,
I know you're still my friend.
I need to get a grip on things,
I know it's not the end.
I need to stop pretending,
That this is all my fault,
That it's me who caused it all,
When I know it's not.
You made the decision, to end it between us,
You told me the reason it had to stop,
And I give you my trust.
I know it's not the last time,
That I'll see your face,
And I know it's not the last time,
I'll go over to your place.
I need to calm myself down,
And stop living in doubt,
I know that we'll still keep in touch,
I know we'll still hang out.
I'm sorry I made this so much worse,
I know it hurt you too,
I was selfish, and I''m sorry,
For what I put you through.
I know that in a few years time,
I'll look back at what I did,
And I know I'll laugh my heart out,
For being such a stupid kid.
So now I've learnt my lesson,
And I know it's not the end,
And I know I haven't lost you,
Because you're still my friend.