No Safety Net

A blade, a pill, a cigarette
Anything really
To help me forget

Though it never does at all
They’re just things
To catch me when I fall

I’ll tell you why I’m crying
It is because they can’t save me
All of them have been trying

But … it seems I’m in too deep
Such agony surges through me
And I ache to simple sleep

But my mind is too panicked and alert
To ever grant me that wish
So I’ll sit and cut away the hurt

But it doesn’t leave, it doesn’t go
And it never will … because
I can’t let anybody know

I am alone, in very sense
I’m sinking so far so fast
My body so tense

Just wanting to believe
That this torture
Will one day leave

But here’s that final climax
When I realize it won’t go
And so I face the facts

I either stay and endure forever this pain
Or I leave right now, tonight
Never to come back again.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005