The cutter ©

As soon as you realize
you turn you gaze away
suprised that someone like me
was in so much pain

The pain is there
slicing through
I want to take this blade
and make sure it goes through

As I wake up in the morning
I realize that it was done again
I did not go deep enough
last night was not the end

Each night I dread
to wake up in the morning
realizing that it was just my dreams
that took this pain away

this blade is my escape
I feel I have no control
how you touch me so deep
and you leave me to bleed

If I could see you one last time
as I lay myself to sleep
I would tell you I love you
as I make my final speech

Please don't blame yourself
it wasn't your fault
that things weren't meant to be
but you broke my heart

~Im sorry if this is really bad just an answer to my feelings