Sin

It's pain you can't explain,
All these thoughts that drain though my head
Wanting to tell but the fear that no one understands.

Wanting and dreaming to be normal
Just wanting a life that's reliable.

I want to cry
But then I couldn't stop if I tried.

The fear of wanting to be happy and making the right choice all at once!
I'm scared of the lords next life stunts
Haven't I've been through enough?
And another fear of losing love from Mi Amour,
or another slammed door--
in my face.
With not even a little grace
I wish I just had a little place to go to.
To relax and let my thoughts just wonder
Maybe so I can just sit and ponder
And see and believe in dreams near yonder
For my heart is growing fonder.

Being pushed and pulled
And always being ruled.

At the bottom of the food chain.
Do you understand what I'm saying?

NO you don't!
I'm all alone.

No one is like me or lives like me
No one knows how my feelings be
If only you could just see
Having to pay a fee for my parents sin.
Nothing because of what I did
But only because of a parents sin--
A child crys for--
just another slammed door
Wondering when will it happen more
My body, Mind, Heart, Soul and personality are sore.

Not even finding the real me
Not even understanding Brittany
please....please just let me be.
I beg of you lord
Forgive my Parents Sin.
Please take me out of this hell hole which you call life that I'm in
Please forgive my parents sin.

I have black running down my cheek
With no words to even speak
For all the love and fame I seek.

For my prayers have not been answered
For just wanting another life that's fancier
Or more chances here or there!

I pray for that one day to be happy
No problems will come to me.

Where everyone is kind
And to be someplace where there's
No special time
Where life is just fine.

For everyone is perfect
No ones sick
No ones tired
And no ones sad!
Just for one day can you make everyone glad?
AMEN
~*BRITBRAT*~