Why?

Why do I feel so dark
when everyday there's sun?

why do I feel so alone
when around me is everyone?

why do I feel so much pain
when a smile is all I wear?

why do I feel so hopeless
when people say they care?

why do I hide my scars
when help is when I need?

why do I cry when I'm mad
why do I choose to bleed?

why do I choose to fall
when I'm hanging by a thread?

why do I decide to stay
when I'd rather be happy dead?

why when I feel low
do I manage to say I'm fine?

why do I keep my secrets locked away?
why can't for once I shine?